Today as I was walking along the waterfront, by the heavily trafficked intersecting street where there is a tram crossing, two men in their thirties dressed in chinos were riding a rental e-bike; the one who wasn’t steering clutched a giant chocolate bar — which he no doubt won at the tivoli — in his armpit as they just crossed the street, ignoring the red lights and the obvious danger as they made it safely against all odds to the other side.
Something about these smartly dressed gentlemen was inspiring in a way,
The moon is full behind a thin veil of clouds, looking almost orange against the late summer night sky’s deep but not dark blue
I’m on vacation at a castle, this month’s salary spent already on halloumi burgers with home made french fries
Here in my room I glimpse it (the moon) through the open window. I hear the blowing fan sounding like the rustling of leaves outside. And sometimes a car in the distance, or someone french sounding carelessly talking to someone right outside.
Upsetting the dogs of course
I thought of my neurotic black dog again today when I ate the burger; he freaks out about things only his keen dog ears can hear, or if there’s unexpected movements at the corner of his eye or if another dog walks by,
I think that there’s no way for him to know that those sounds or dogs aren’t dangerous; in reality there’s no way to know for sure — what if one of these guys with a Sabaton t-shirt hates dogs and tries to kidnap him or worse? It’s by being careful that we as species can survive. At least some specimen of each kind ought to have this vivid imagination for spotting danger
But it’s exhausting to worry about everything, life may pass you by and you might’ve been too worried about what might go wrong to live, and it ends with death even for the most careful
I thought about there was this Norwegian doctor who said something along the line that you extend your life by jogging, but maybe not by more than the time spent doing it, so you better like it. Or something to that effect.
Maybe it’s the same with worrying, that maybe you’ll live longer due to being able to avoid potential dangers, but the price you pay for it is pretty high, so you better enjoy worrying.
I’m having vacation. Received a mug from my colleagues the other day. It was a parting gift. I got it through the mail.
It made me happy, knowing they each thought of me like that.
Small gestures of kindness mean a lot, I think.
Knowing someone cares enough to send a big red mug, when they don’t have to, knowing we probably will never meet again, is very heartwarming.
I think it’s: they add the raisins to the Müsli which would’ve otherwise been just oats.
my lungs are inhaling great volumes of air, what a miracle!
Yesterday and the day before that, I was having some super allergy with asthma out if not asthma, something in the lungs,
But not today
Today I’m counting down until vacation (1,5 days)
I’m counting down to retirement too, but that is ridiculously far away
Isn’t it strange how I can feel this old and yet have soo many years of work left?
It’s some sort of joke,
Like when I was fixing this cable, the one between the barn and the pump house labelled internet, to replace one which mysteriously broke, I sat on my tenth try with all of these tiny cables trying to get them all into their slots of this RJ45 connector, T568 A style. To clamp down, but my hands are way too big and I don’t see what I’m doing, it felt ridiculously hard, I don’t even see what I’m doing, not even without these tears of frustration and shame!!!
But last time, having broken the clamp tool with my mighty grip, having discarded five connectors, I prayed to God please let this work now
And it did!
I feel the same anticipation about my remaining career!!
It’s called faith?
In searching my brain for something interesting to write, I found it empty! I’ve only a throbbing pain in my skull, but nothing else.
If I close my eyes for an hour or two, when I wake up, maybe it’ll be back
A few days back, as I was pouring taco sauce in the high grass fringe, I saw a roe deer up close; he hadn’t seen me and was just as surprised in seeing me as I was in seeing him.
He looked really majestic as he hopped and gracefully ran the other way!
I probably looked just as majestic to him as he did to me.
today was warm, the elderly suffering, ofttimes there’s no AC, and the fans used instead to cool them are blowing all of the bacteria mucus and viruses straight into their faces. I saw that on the news.
But some other people lay at the beach, sweating like pork chops, then dipping themselves every once in a while in the clear water which is pure enough for all sorts of special fishes.
And on the same planet, even in the same little town, I am too.
Making rhubarb pie. Something about rhubarb is unhealthy I think for the kidneys, but for me — having a tinge of darkness churning deep within — it’s part of the charm.
And I dug the soil and with my bare hands I harvested the potatoes with their tender, demon red skins.
Life, I don’t even pretend to understand what’s going on
Yet another day among the sun flowers, the tall green grass and the wasps.
I’m sitting inside however. By my laptop stack, looking at the screens, working with a cold cup of black coffee
Listening to Dio in my earphones
Took a considerable amount of 50 commits to have docker in docker in docker to push the docker image I was building to a self hosted docker registry with a self signed certificate.
And when it finally pushed, I didn’t feel anything.
It’s like inception.
Hey they removed another cookie from the box, and they’re shrinking. How small will they have to be before they all disappear completely? The only place where there’s an increasing amount of cookies in the web browser.
Hey I read that when they shrunk the ice creams, they did it for the customer’s sake to make healthier snack sizes or something.
Do you ever feel like the guy from falling down? Bill Foster