A desicion made
I’ve long been wanting to write about dwarves. They’ve risen in my eyes.
I quit my job the other day. I feel unburdened now, light as a feather but still with a gnawing sense of unease at what might come next. It was from Paradise Hotel that I learned that you cannot put a leash on a wolf, and I have been leashed and it is that leash which has been chafing me and now its absence feels thrilling. So it’s true for a donkeys too.
I’ve been talking with my best friend when we were having 1on1 about which Patronuses we had, you know like in Harry Potter and I knew without thinking that I was (mine was) a donkey. (He is a bear). (This professional exchange is one of greatest significance in my life). I shall point out here, just because it matters to me (but has no bearing on this text in general) that this friend he too has a faiblesse for Dwarves (at this time I identified more closely to elves however)
Some might say that having a Donkey as a Patronus is some sort of self-deprecation but then they forget that Jesus rode into Betlehem on a donkey, to which they might counter that it was the symbolism of riding on a donkey of all animals which really made the point of Jesus’ so humble mindset, to which I’d say exactly.
Indeed.
Anyway so the dwarves, I’ve been listening again to Wind Rose, and once again I am struck by how a band can have six full-length albums without a single bad track, but mostly about the profound lyrics.
I see now the grim dignity of the Dwarves unyielding existence, how they stack on the walls even though they know they will all die. (I would also draw examples from lord of the rings, but for some reason those books didn’t make the same impact on me. I reckon it was the power metal element which finally opened my eyes. (Or the books were read at a point in my life when I wasn’t really receptive to the rich symbolism in there)).
Dwarves toil endlessly, are fiercely loyal and unyielding.
Dwarves are headstrong too, just like donkeys.
Their vices are greed and possibly gluttony.
So back to the point I am making:
I shall draw power from my inner dwarf as I now venture into a new chapter of my professional life, and if need be, I’ll call on my donkey Patronus.