The happy place

tonight the moon was elsewhere, as were the stars

But I saw there were gray clouds on the deep blue sky

And I felt that it had rained.

And I’m drunk now, even though I’ve drank Lidl iced tea, and have eaten two (small) Pan Pizzas, I feel the Sunday deep in my bones, and I feel the alcohol in the system surrounding these strong but old bones.

But not in a bad way.

I saw some live music earlier this evening. That’s where I had all those beers.

I felt when sitting (because this was a sitting concert, maybe due to the average (old) age of the audience (does that include me — I’m not sure)?) , when I sat there, beer in my hand, and heard some familiar songs performed — songs I’ve not heard in twenty years or more — I felt a deep sense of contentment, watching the show with one eye shut (never mind why , it doesn’t matter)…

In fact, it reminded me of this winter when I sat with a beer in the rain looking into the fire

I was having a deep sadness then, but the fire seemed to melt it, at least for a moment I saw only those flames and felt the warmth on my face even though the rain was chilly

There was something hypnotising

That sensation, a serenity maybe

That’s what I felt today

I felt like laughing

I just wanted to sit there with the music, not thinking anything in particular

Just caught in the moment

And now again I’m home

Again it’s Sunday

OK let’s go