On the future

my lungs are inhaling great volumes of air, what a miracle!

Yesterday and the day before that, I was having some super allergy with asthma out if not asthma, something in the lungs,

But not today

Today I’m counting down until vacation (1,5 days)

I’m counting down to retirement too, but that is ridiculously far away

Isn’t it strange how I can feel this old and yet have soo many years of work left?

It’s some sort of joke,

Like when I was fixing this cable, the one between the barn and the pump house labelled internet, to replace one which mysteriously broke, I sat on my tenth try with all of these tiny cables trying to get them all into their slots of this RJ45 connector, T568 A style. To clamp down, but my hands are way too big and I don’t see what I’m doing, it felt ridiculously hard, I don’t even see what I’m doing, not even without these tears of frustration and shame!!!

But last time, having broken the clamp tool with my mighty grip, having discarded five connectors, I prayed to God please let this work now

And it did!

I feel the same anticipation about my remaining career!!

It’s called faith?