The happy place

Hello everyone

I’m feeling tense in the head, like there’s too much in there

There are spikes of doubt and nausea shooting through the brain like acid reflux leaving a headache in its wake

And yet I stand erect, feet planted firmly in the muck like a V.

It will be better up there, the molten gold I have pieced myself together with will solidify

That is part of my challenge: to stand firm like an adult

This is my reality: I see it clearly, but sometimes even I get acid reflux of the brain but I mustn’t move an inch until

The gold is solid

I cannot afford to fail

I cannot be wrong this time

This is all I have !

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